oh well .. i guess i really need to buck up.. shit ass lagging behind everyone.. and this is not the worst yet.. and i hate being a burden to everyone.. as im used to being the motivator.. now ppl have to motivate me instead.. so yeah.. im trying to figure out if im really cut out for this,.. have been really keeping to myself as im trying to go with the “new” me but i realized that i dont get things done and i just get all the more frustrated by it.

i dont know why but for the whole of today.. i just feel that things are not right.. and there’s this big worry in my heart.. for which i have no idea why its about…

it used to be easy. anw, the most beautiful pain came from u. so its time to let it burn. and never letting it stop burning.

even a free drink couldnt perk me up today. that was how bad it was. bad. i think solitude is for me.. or rather.. i think its the best form of escapism.. i just need a hole now..

hello blog readers. ive been away a long long time for a very very good reason. ive been busy. not. actually. its just tht, well, i dont feel like sharing but yeah. ive been moody. cause of.. well..think time frame awareness. not that what im saying is making sense to anybody at this point in time.. but yeah.. if u really wanna know.. then just ask me.. cause.. its not just moody.. its depressing..and i always get depressed for the same ol reasons… so its not really much of a guess anyways.. what the hell am i ranting about?!?!?!

lets take some time to go back and yeah, there wasnt any burning taking place. i dont know why i didnt

TERM TEST IS OVER!.. but fuck.. i got 2 guard duties in one weekend.. wtf… WTF!
and worse part is i got no money to sell it off..

ok, so im taking a break from muggin from my term test just to rant out abit here. it feels kinda good to be able to attend lectures in the morning, then go gym and continue studying at night.. i guess training to be a firefighter also is kinda like bootcamp for uni. heh, i’ll say it as much as i knw im gonna regret saying this once it starts for real in 2011.
2011, that seems like a long time from nw eh? well thats what i thought 2009 was in 2007. and wat 2007 was in 2005. and guess wat? 19 years of my life done and over with.
and yeah.. i think im in need of new socks.. dont ask me why but i suddenly got the urge to get colored socks as MMPR is blasting on itunes. for those who had no childhood, MMPR= mighty morphin power rangers.
aite so i think its back to muggin since im only halfway done with hazard classes. or rather just about to start memorising them.

those were the days of joy.

just got myself my thumb ring as well as a book by natsuo kirino. i think im just plain ass bored. was thinking of going o school ystd but my knees arent feeling too good i suppose. now to save up for my license and the olympus ep-1. heh. thousands man.. thousands..

Pin the specialists, Kill the firefighters.

and so after a hectic two weeks of sorts, i finally have some time of peace in the early mornings which i do miss since it is my only time where even in the middle of all the chaos, i can enjoy personal time. so at this time last week, my dear uncle passed away. kinda shocker cause of the sudden nature of it all but yeah, we all have to go sometime. well, all i can say is that we are gonna miss his awesome personality and the comic relief he brings to otherwise very mundane family gatherings. its kinda deja vu cause its another hari raya with one less family member. not really a good feeling but as i mentioned, life still goes on.

on a more happier note, i guess im left with my term test before my first term as an oct is done with.. its been an awesome 13 odd weeks so far and im planning to make sure the rest goes well. cock-ups are the norm but then again with holland v buddies around, life is pretty damn much interesting. which reminds me, im suppose to meet up with people after the fasting month is over. coffee is a must. and i really hope we win fsc. and the new dining in proposal gets approved. and that the plan will all work out well.